I sent this email on the 21st of December 2019. Out of 30 mentioned email addresses 4 turned out to be live, therefore, it is reasonable to suggest that someone at least received and read the below.
The answer is the following: it didn’t matter whether you’d foreseen the creation of another spiritual monster because you saw it even then. But desire for non-participation in the bullshit still requires the survival push and as such – participation in the bullshit. The world doesn’t magically disappear just because one has convinced themselves of its non-existence, right?
No one is free from realities of physical living, so let’s get down to realities now.
One thing that pisses me off (do you remember L.? ‘She’ wished women were more direct? well, your wish has come true)… is that you are letting Kenneth get away with it. I am not saying you should grab your longest sharpest pen, jump on a plane to Cambodia, chase him down to one of the whore houses and stab him with your pen until he wows a bloody promise to never impersonate a spiritual writer again.. Not at all, and he is not that much of a whore master, although who can resist huh..
I’m saying that you made no effort whatsoever, other than your lame disclaimer in tiny letters at the bottom of one page. No naming him, no stating the Invisible Guru forum (gotta love the name) is a fake. Nothing. Zilch, nada, zero, nought, blah.
I have much respect for your mind. We have arrived at the same point in life via different initial parameters. You were born with ability to think for yourself (some born great huh..), I saw it in your non spiritual writings. I acquired it through being so emotionally charged and frustrated with the absence of any valid answers that I dumped every fantasy and learnt to think through much of the world and my own garbage with cold precision. Paradox, I know, in the presence of emotionally choking states, but it was done, and killed.
Just like the fucking Buddha who surprise surprise(!!) was then cunning enough to go for the alms, and not the first one to choose survival over the principle. Just like you did.
Fine, who am I to say otherwise, you give humans the lies that they want. But. I repeat.. I am pissed off that Ken gets away every time. He swindled scores of humans in the past; people contacted me and told me about other, unpublished dealings of his. Now he is inviting folks to Cambodia to attend his courses as a Jed McKenna figure. The ‘virtual ashram’ has shrunk after my revelations, but still serves as a recruitment ground. Newbies believe his story that he was the basis for your enlightened man ‘Jed’, and he cut off all means of contacting anyone there.
Despite the ridiculous monkey predictable past suggestions (usually from females, most can’t think to save a life) – I have never paid a penny and have never been involved with the man. In fact, I hardly know him, certainly much less than the devotees he is acquiring now in SE Asia in the name of ‘Jed McKenna’. You’ve got to give it to him tho.. Ken’s lived a scandalously interesting in many ways life.
The MODEL for YOUR story, don’t you find it ironic, the story about truth is steeped in mystery and inspired scamming? And you remain silent.
So … fuck that. You have to say something, and I am asking you not to be a cunt, but to choose decency above the animal state. Despite your stubborn insistence on being a ‘no self’ entity, you are a flesh and bones human man with a strong ability to affect others with your mind. This entity does not ‘appear’ to be (that’s a lame excuse for graduating as Hannibal Lector, clutching a clean slate in one’s hand). This is, alive and breathing and farting at times. I can’t figure out whether this is part of the money making yarn or you truly believe this nonsense of no self. If the former – you lied. If the latter – you swallowed some toxic shit in your younger spiritual indoctrination years and are holding on tight.
No matter. Hmm, just imagined your ‘no self’ dying for #2 and nowhere to.. Sorry. Natural laws are unbeatable, no matter how hard we are trying to play with them in our heads.
You can imagine that over two years of digging has provided me with a pretty accurate picture of your past and present life. I have photos, details of your moving around, your family, your past writings.. blah blah. If any stranger out there knows anything about ‘s life – it is me. I would say even doesn’t have as much information, meticulously collected and catalogued, dots connected. It is.. let me tell you… 14GB of research archives. It is by all means not all your life, but enough to figure out its general curves and roundabouts. Yours was a clever setup based on one premise – one cannot prove what does not exist. All you have to do is deny it consistently, and voila! who can prove you are the writer? Who can disprove you are the writer?
But.. I can weave a very convincing heart stopping tale, supported with great factual details in the same way I did with Kenneth. The audience has developed some trust in my presentation of real events, since I never attempted to sell them anything and have no reason to whitewash. I am not motivated by money even though I don’t have any, or lucrative ‘teaching’ career as that would be a blatant lie, and you advised once on teaching?? or book writing even though many asked, or a guru admiration, or whatever other goodies motivate human monkeys to remain in the monkey state.
When one never wants anything from humans.. it’s liberating.
But I want something from you. Here is the dilemma… right now I am considering my desire to share all with the world versus the principle of ‘Do onto others as you wish to be done onto you’ (fuck that, trust me having principles complicates life somewhat). As I wouldn’t want my life story to be read by everyone – I don’t wish that for you either. I’ve come to appreciate the fact that you (mostly) live by what you preach, and despite the books’ perceived arrogance – you aren’t arrogant in real life and even modest. Quite old-fashion good seed, in fact.
But on the other hand, Kenneth’s lies pissed me off enough to check out his scamming activities.
And you pissed me off by condoning his deceit through maintaining silence, aside from the fact that you are writing about a millennia old con job. No one is going anywhere except six feet under, and that understanding was mine from childhood. Spirituality has only a toothless smile to offer, it should be confined to a children books’ shelf it is that impotent.
Stop being silent on this matter and help me shut down Ken’s forum. This is my request, wrapped up in a vague threat of exposure, fuck me, yes. But , after two years of full immersion in dirt, lies and public arrows in the ass I’ve near lost a sense of compassion for human beings and reaching a point of not giving a shit: get it all out and walk away from this stupidity of artificially created mystery.
The EM could become a great source of all ‘Jed McKenna’ related material, all for no penny at all. I even envisioned a Wikipedia article, one way of immortalizing the Jed McKenna/Ken McMordie story.. in a ‘catch me if you can’ sense. That, however, according to my internal sense of decency would be going too far simply because you are not willing to be a public figure.
I am a tad warmer in physical life. I have no wish for you other than “Keep on living for as long as you can”. The world feels a tiny bit cozier when knowing there are human monkeys who can paddle the sea in a straighter line. And stop writing half truths. Tell them how it REALLY is, Nietzsche and deathbed Jed style, instead of whacking them on the head for being your ardent disciples. Break their hearts. This is the only thing that works.. if one is after playing with the minds of others.
Finally.. in one of your books (don’t remember which, I never read any of them in full) Paul says something on the lines of ‘There is no…?’
There is no enlightenment. There is no Maya. There are no miracles. What you see is what you get… if one can get to see it clearly. Then you die.
Hope you’d have enough common sense to respond in some way. Swearing permitted, but I don’t think you are the type, and …. I don’t know how to sugar-coat things, including human to human interaction.
P.S. My toe hurts, and the world stops. How about that?
HAPPY NEW YEAR, FOLKS!
NOTICE: The EM website will go offline for some weeks in the New Year. This is so that I could play around with the settings and make changes.